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My #InvisibleFight: Fighting for Recognition of Chronic Illness

This year, Invisible Illness Awareness Week, which takes place from September 28 to October 4, has as its theme “My invisible fght”. I wrote for INvisible Illness Awarness Week in 2013, but skipped it in 2014, believing I didn’t qualify as someone with an invisible illness. Of course, I have a mental illness, but in my twisted mind I thought that didn’t count.

Over the years, I have been fighting to get a proper diagnosis and treatment for my chronic fatigue, irritable bowel symptoms and other random fun. Until early 2015, my syptoms were dismissed as being behavioral. What I mean by this is what I wrote yesterday: I was doing too little so I was fatigued. Never mind the other symptoms.

In February of this year, I was diagnosed with vitamin D, B12 and iron deficiencies. All were treated for some time, but eventually I was taken off all but vitamin D. This is a bit ironic, since vitamin D is the most potentially harmful of these three supplements and I have not had my vitamin D levels tested since April.

My doctor also didn’t follow the protocl for treating vitamin B12 deficiency. I had to insist on getting subcutaneous shots insead of tablets. The B12 research group in the Netherlands recommends shots, reasoning that, unless you’re strictly vegan,, you probably have a problem with absorption of vitamin B12 or you wouldn’t be deficient in it. The research group recommends starting with twice-weekly injections for five weeks followed by tapering based on symptoms, not serum B12 levels. I got the recommended five weeks of injections but they were discontinued after that.

I happen to be the odd one out where it comes to B12 deficiency, not having had a return in symptoms for about a month after the injections were stopped and having normal serum B12 levels even four months after my last shot. Though my symptoms returned, my B12 levels were normal about a month ago and the research group does not support supplementing without testing low in B12. Apparently, or so I assume, B12 deficiency wasn’t the root of my symptoms.

Does it matter what the root is? If there’s a targeted treatment, of course it does. If a simple pill or shot could help me live a normal life again, thee’s no reason not to fight for that. But I’ve now had these symptoms for so long. I’ve been on iron and B12 and now vitamin D for so long on and off with little long-term improvement. I’ve had so many blood tests and other tests that came back normal. And yet I’m still sick.

What am I fighting for, I wonder. If no treatment can cure my symptoms, isn’t it just the diagnosis, the recognition that something is wrong, that I fight for? In all honesty, I have to answer this question affirmatively. It’s not that I don’t also want treatment, but I also want to be validated. Is this normal?

in a way, it is. Most people with chronic physical health symptoms fight to be recognized as physically ill. They obviously also fight for treatment, but they also fight the stigma that is associated with the notion that they are psychologically ill. The problem is that, by wanting to be recognized as physically ill even if there is no known cause or treatment for our illness, we add to the stigma of mental illness.

Don’t get me wrong: physical symptoms need to be treated as they are, physical. Every possibility needs to be exhausted to find a cause and treatment for the symptoms. If there is none, that also doesn’t mean the cause is psychological or that psychological intervention will help. But it just might. Let’s fight for proper treatment of chronic illnesses and health problems, no matter their (presumed) roots.

Everyday Gyaan

Also linking up with #InvisibleFight at Invisible Illness Awareness Week. I will probably be writing another post on September 28 to honor the start of Invisible illness Week 2015.

Rest #WotW

Last week, I was going to choose “sick” or “flu” as my word of the week. I was, after all, sick with the flu. To be honest, I’ve never been this ill as far as I remember. It doesn’t say much, as I hardly ever get ill, but really, this was bad. I “only” ran a fever for four days, but the shortness of breath and exhaustion were a lot worse than the fever. Actually, when I ran a low-grade fever, I felt worse than when I ran a higher fever.

The fever went away last week Friday, but it took me the whole week-end plus Monday and Tuesday before I had enough energy to spend considerable time on the computer. I wrote a few short blog posts for my Dutch blog, but didn’t have much energy for a real post.

This week, my word for the week is “rest”, because that is what I’ve been doing most of the week. I did try to keep some sembleance of a circadian rythm, though today I slept in till 11:30 AM.

I am still a little hoarse and coughy, but the exhaustion seems to have gone back to pre-flu levels. That means it’s still there to an extent.

I found out last week that I had deficiencies in iron, vitamin B12 and vitamin D. I’m now taking iron tablets, getting vitamin D drops once a week and a shot of vitamin B12 twice a week. I hope that this will help me feel less fatigued. Today is the first day in several weeks that I’m not going to bed right after getting my night meds. Then again, I hope to get enough rest tonight anyway.

The Reading Residence