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Currently – July 2018

It’s still hot, so my book review and several other complicated posts will have to wait yet again. Today, I’m participating in this month’s Currently, hosted by Anne of In Residence and Shelly of The Queen in Between.

Celebrating: my birthday. It was last week, but I still have yet to get my husband’s present for me, as I asked him for a summer jacket, so he’ll have to have me pick one. I don’t like online shopping for clothes, as I won’t be able to feel the fabric then, so we’ll have to go to a brick and mortar store. We were in the nearest larger city yesterday for a mental health appointment for me, but my husband felt it was too hot to go shopping.

My oldest sister-in-law’s birthday is also coming up on Sunday. She doesn’t seem to like celebrating it though.

Visiting: my in-laws. I felt rather lonely and stressed this afternoon, so called my mother-in-law. She offered to pick me up and we drove to my in-laws’ house. I had dinner there and we walked their dog.

Baking: I’m not baking anything at the moment. I wasn’t at my current day activities today, as I was taking a look at a possible new day activities place. We usually do a simple baking or cooking activity at my current day activities on Wednesday and they do the same at the potential new place, but not today.

My husband though baked a delicious strawberry cheesecake for my birthday last week. I am used to getting apple pie on my birthday, but didn’t want that this year. My husband said we did need to have some cake for my parents, who were coming over, so I chose cheesecake.

Wearing: skirts! One of my favorite aspects of summer is being able to wear skirts. I have three of the same kind in red, blue and green. Then I have one other skirt, a blue one with a rose on it, that I got from my husband for my birthday several years ago. Lastly, I have a green one which is just a little too tight for me now, but I’m hoping to fit in it again next year.

Loving: life, mostly. I am genuinely feeling much better than I was several months ago. I still can get self-destructive when triggered, which still happens every now and again. However, I think I can be fairly confident that I’m no longer seriously depressed.

What have you been up to?

Top Ten Plans for This Summer

It’s (almost) summertime. The weather has been quite good here lately. Particularly last week, the weather was lovely. This week, it’s getting slightly cooler and we’ve had some rain. However, the weather is still good enough to be outside in a T-shirt without a jacket. That’s one thing I love about spring and summer.

One of Mama’s Losin’ It’s prompts for this week is to share your top ten summer plans. I am really looking forward to this summer and I’d love to share my plans with you. Many are the same as last year’s, but unlike then, I did already make some of my plans happen.


  1. Go swimming. This is one of the items on last year’s bucke tlist that I couldn’t cross off then. This year, I’m participatng in a four-day swimming event this very week. I’m swimming only 100 meters each day, which is the shortest distance you could do. So far, I’ve completed two days of the event, that is really five days, already. You only need to complete four out of five days for the medal, but I plan on swimming each day.

  2. Have a barbecue. This is on last year’s list too. I didn’t think that I’d make this year’s barbecue on the institution unit, but now I think I will. It hasn’t been planned yet, but I heard the head nurse say she was going to get the DJ we have each year booked again.

  3. Sit in the garden. My home garden this time. I didn’t know last year of course that this year I’d have a real garden at home. The unit garden is also going to get remodeled soon.

  4. Eat strawberries, blackberries, blackcurrants, etc. I got raspberries from the market last week, but we don’t have them in the garden. The shrub my husband bought died before we could plant it. We do have many other berries, however. I don’t know how well they’ll do their first year, but I already ate a strawberry out of our garden last week.
  5. Go for walks. I walked form our old apartment to the institution a few times last year. This year, our walks have been in the tiny village. I hope to go to the woods sometime this summer too.

  6. Spend time with family. I’ve got to have an item on the list that I didn’t have last year. My sister and my parents are both coming over to our home next week (if my sister can get the day off) to celebrate my birthday.

  7. Eat the head nurse’s French fries and/or macaroni. There’s a nurse who lives in Turkey most of the year who comes over to work at our unit for the summers. It’s a tradition that she and the head nurse make macaroni from scratch once each year. It doesn’t sound that special, I know, but for people who normally get microwave meals everyday, it is. I’ve also heard the head nurse has plans for making us French fries on a Sunday in July. She makes fries about once a month, but usually on Saturdays, when I’m home.

  8. Wear my new dress. I already wore a skirt several times this year. I also bought two new dresses, one of which I already wore. I want to wear the other one too.

  9. Do lots of reading. This was one of the things I didn’t do enough of last year, even though I could. This year, it’s even easier, since I finally got a full Bookshare membership. I plan on reading a few books that I’ve wanted to read forever but never got down to buying as eBooks. Not that I couldn’t have bought them as eBooks, but I was planning on getting a Bookshare membership all along and so delayed getting the books. Reading books in DAISY format is still easier than reading eBooks. Of course, getting them from Bookshare, which is like a library for print disabled people, is cheaper too. I will review the books that I read here too.

  10. Write. I haven’t been blogging here as much as I’d like to this month or last month. After all, I’ve been feeling pretty uninspired. I hope to be inspired soon.


What are your plans for this summer?

Mama’s Losin’ It

On My Summer Reading List

As a child, I hated reading. I was required to read at school and sometimes at home, but at least during summer vacation, the reading required by my teachers was gone for a few months. I wasn’t one to join summer reading clubs and maybe finished my library’s reading program – five books in three months or so – once.

It was, however, during the summer of 2000 that my love for reading took off. I discovered Caja Cazemier, a Dutch juvenile fiction writer, and read many of her books during the next two years. Since I went to a high level high school, however, we were required to read real adult literature from ninth grade on. I hated it! Still in all honesty, I’ve not read many works of adult fiction. Give me non-fiction, memoris and juvenile fiction instead.

I didn’t read much during the years following my high school graduation in 2005. Few books at least – I obviously did read blogs and magazines. In 2014, however, I rediscovered a love of reading when I learned how to work eBooks. This summer, I’m going to really make time for reading.

Since summer reading is the topic on the Spin Cycle this week, I browsed Kobo for a few books I want to read. Here goes.

1. Tressa – The 12-Year-Old Mum: My True Story by Tressa Middleton and Katy Weitz. I admit it, I love inspirational books about people who overcame adversity. Some people see this as bad, and I understand why, but well, yeah. Tressa Middleton became Britain’s youngest mother in 2006 at the age of twelve. The truth is she was raped and made pregnant by her brother, but she hid this truth for years. This must have been an awful experience, but, according to the cover, Tressa overcame this trauma. I just found this book today and really look forward to reading Tressa’s true story.

2. Beyond Magenta by Susan Kuklin. Since finally favoring my own opinions over others’, I can now admit I support transgender people and their rights. On the blog I kept in like 2010, I often used to call out transphobia and homophobia, but this has gone on the backburner since I wanted to belong with the Christian community. Being cisgender and straight, privilege affords me this luxury. Beyond Magenta is a book of stories from transgender teens. It was published in early 2014 and I’ve wanted to read it ever since. I can’t promise it won’t have any inspirational qualities to me, but I mostly like to educate myself about trans people’s lives. (Of course, if you’ve read about one trans person, you’ve read about one trans person.) I won’t be able to see the photographs the cover mentions, so I hope I won’t be missing out on them.

3. The Beauty Myth by Naomi Wolf. This book is the June 2015 non-fiction read in the F-Word community on GoodReads. In this book, Wolf exposes the hidden body negativity and sexism of modern beauty ideals and the beauty industry. As a fat person who doesn’t conform to beauty norms (eg. I don’t usually wear make-u), I look forward to reading what Wolf has to say.

What will you be reading this summer? Any other recommendations for on my reading list?

My Summer Bucket List

The Memorial Day week-end is often seen as the official start ot summer in the United States. Now I have no clue why they celebrate the official start of summer in late May, as to my knowledge summer doesn’t start till June 21 and the weather isn’t very summerlike either. That is, here, we’ve only had two days that the temperature has risen above 20_C. I want warm weather! So, in case I can influence the weather with my thoughts, here is my summer bucket list.


  1. Go swimming. Ideally at a lake, but I so want to go swimming at an outdoor swimming pool too!

  2. Wear a skirt and short-sleeved shirt. Maybe it’s good that summer hasn’t come yet, as I only have one skirt that still fits (ouch!). I so want to wear it though.

  3. Have a barbecue. We usually go barbecueing at my psych unit in the summer. While I don’t like the DJ who comes to play music and the disinhibited singing of my fellow patients, the food is great.

  4. Eat redcurrants, strawberries, raspberries, you name it. My parents grow them in their garden and it’s a tradition that they bring me a bin of mostly redcurrants at my birthday in late June.

  5. Sit in the garden. I’d love to visit my parents and sit in their garden sometime this summer. The unit’s garden is quite small, but I’d like to sit in there too.

  6. Sunbathe on the grass. When I still resided on the acute ward in like 2008, my husband and I would often go to a nearby park where I’d lie in the grass. In my memory, that particular summer and spring were quite warm. Oh, how I’d love to lie on the grass again! But it’s too wet.

  7. Take some nature walks. My husband and I already wandered the countryside around our town’s castle a few days ago. I’d love to enjoy more of these walks.

  8. Pick up crafting again, particularly with a summerlike theme. Christmas-themed crafting is good, but I also love butterflies. What time is better to make butterfly crafts than summer? I also love bright colors and they don’t go well on a Christmas craft.

  9. Do lots of reading. With summertime being the time when most therapists go on vacation, so there are fewer day activities, I’ll have time to enjoy a good book or a few.

  10. Write. I love writing all year round, so not particularly something for on my summer bucket list, but so what?


So what is on your summer bucket list? I’m linking up with #TuesdayTen and the Spin Cycle, both of which have “Kicking of summer” as their theme. Enjoy!

The Golden Spoons

Memories of Summer: Traveling While Blind

I haven’t participated in #theprompt in many weeks, but this week’s prompt appealed to me. It is “memories of summer”. My husband and I are currently planning our vacation for this year, which will be in September, and we’ve run into some problems finding things to do that I actually enjoy.

When I still had some vision, I enjoyed camping out, although I probably didn’t enjoy it as much as I remember. I liked going to the beach. My family used to go to Vlieland, one of the Dutch Wadden Islands. Up until I was around eight, I liked it there. I was in fact sad that, from my age nine on, we skipped a few years. That could just be my insistence on sameness though.

When we went back to Vlieland when I was twelve, I had a pretty horrible time and so did my family due to my almost daily meltdowns. I had pretty much lost my use of vision but still clung to what sight I did have. As a consequence, I was extremely dependent on my sister. We went back the next year and it was even worse. I think this may be one reason my parents stopped taking us on vacation after that year except for a trip to Berlin in 2002.

In 2000, I went to a summer camp in Russia organized by the Janusz Korczak Foundation. It was one big disaster. Formally, it was for both blind and sighted youth, but I was the only blind participant in the Dutch group. I was also the youngest Dutch participant at fourteen. I was pretty dependent. The other participants consequently treated me like a chore, and I reacted to it with frustration and tantrums. I liked some of the Russian staff, but the Dutch staff and participants saw me as a pain in the butt. Probably the only reason I applied to go to the same camp again the next year, was that I wanted to fit in somehow. The Dutch participants who had gone with me the previous year were consulted, in line with the Korczak philosophy of having children be judges over each other, and I was turned down.

In 2002, I discovered the International Camp on Communication and Computers (ICC), a computers and technology camp for blind students. I applied to go there and, even though I was honest about my experience in Russia, I was accepted. I went to England in 2002 and to Switzerland in 2003. Particularly my experience in 2002 was interesting and in a way it helped me accept my blindness, along with some other experiences I had that summer. Unfortunately, most such camps are for children and youth only.

I haven’t particularly enjoyed visiting cities. I went to Paris with my grandma in 2001 and, as I said, to Berlin with my family in 2002. While the experience in Paris was okay, I was often very frustrated in Berlin. This isn’t necessarily a blindness thing. I just didn’t like the unpredictability of not having a clue in the morning what we were going to do during the day. I also didn’t really like sightseeing, because, well, there’s just not much I can see.

This is a problem when planning my upcoming vacation. With my husband, I’ve been to Luxembourg, Germany and Switzerlnd so far. None of the experiences were particularly good, but they weren’t bad either. I liked going for walks in nature, but the surface couldn’t be too rough or I’d fall over. I liked trips where it was clear what we’d be doing, such as going on a train into the mountains. In the evenings, I was usually bored.

One of the positive things, hopefully, about the upcoming trip, is that I’ve decided I’m taking my computer. I’m not planning on staring at the screen all day, but at least this will hopefully cure some of the boredom I experienced during the evenings.

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