Welcome to my belated letter P post in the #AtoZChallenge of random reflections. I was rather uninspired yesterday. I also wanted to spend my time upping my activity as tracked by my Fitbit, so that hopefully I’d reach my 10K steps a day – which I almost did. Today too, I wasn’t feeling very inspired. I didn’t know any words with the letter P to write on. Yes, “Preemie”, but I’ve shared my birth story a dozen times already. Or “Psych”, but I didn’t know what to write about then. My husband came up with two this evening that are rather fitting: “Perseverance” and “procrastination”.
I am both quite perseverant and a terrible procrastinator. How can this be? I guess because, though I tend to take frequent breaks in my activities, I almost always manage to carry on after all. This blog post is living proof of that.
Then again, this combination of perseverance and procrastination can also backfire, as I tend to have rather rigid rules about when I can and can’t keep up with some work. For example, if I haven’t posted on a blog for an entire month, I say I have to give up on the blog. This has gotten me to abandon and restart my Dutch blog at least half a dozen times within the past four years. Thankfully, I still manage to keep up with this English blog.
Like I said in my letter N post, I like my perseverance when I’m passionate about something. This perseverance however can backfire too, as I get too obsessed and then am left with lots of stuff and lots of money gone for my special interest when I lose interest again. For example, I probably spent 500 to 1000 euros (closer to 1000 probably) on cardmaking supplies in the year that I was obsessing over cardmaking in 2012. I want to think I didn’t spend as much on soaping supplies in 2016 and I want to think I’ll still pick up that craft. I’m so glad blogging, at least in my style, isn’t as expensive.
As I look back over my post though, I realize maybe here I described the exact opposite of perseverance and procrastination. After all, I jump head first into an interest without procrastination, but once I lose the interest, I don’t really persevere. Sometimes I do, but, except with blogging, I sooner or later always give up.
This is my first time participating in the Tuesday Ten. I’ve been wanting to for a while, but usually I found other things to blog about on Tuesday. Either that, or I simply forgot. The theme for this week is “I need a patch for that”, because this is the weird holdiay celebration tomorrow. Lisa of The Golden Spoons, one of the hosts, wrote ten patches every mother needs. I got thinking about that. I’m not a Mom, so I can’t really expand on those. Then I got thinking: what would I like patches for? And here’s a list of pathes this autistic person would need. Some of them can be seen as “cures” for certain symptoms of autism, while others are work-around patches and still others are patches for the social stigma and misunderstanding I encoutner.
- An anti-overload patch. Even though traditional autistic advocates say they would never take medication to hear or feel less, I certainly would. The thing about a patch, however, is that I can put it on and take it off again, unlike the daily medication I currently take for overload-caused irritability.
- An energy patch. Stole this one from Lisa, but I too think I could benefit from it. Living as an autistic can be quite exhausting, after all.
- A tolerance patch. To put on others when they have a strikingly intolerant attitude. Mostly staff, that is, so I don’t know how I’d get them to put it on, given that their attitude would prevent them from seeing they need it.
- A translation patch. I usually misunderstand people and, rather than putting on a “communicate like a neurotypical” patch, I’d like a translator that sits between me and the neurotypical.
- An easy text-to-speech patch. While we’re communicating anyway, I’d like to be able to write rather than speak. While text-to-speech apps are already available, I’d like one that I can easily use and that doesn’t make me look like a weirdo. I’d also like it to translate from speech to text (or braille, in my case). I’ve honestly been thinking of wanting a Communicator, which is a device used by deafblind people, but they’re very expensive and I’m not eligible for funds. i’m verbal, after all.
- A patience patch. Again, this one is stolen from Lisa, and I’d like to put it on others again, though I could myself use some patience at times.
- A perseveration patch. The good thing about patches again is the ability to put them on and take them off. Today, I’ve been looking everywhere for some perseveration, while at other times, I’m totally immersed in my special interest.
- An antidepressant patch. I don’t suffer from clinical depression, but I do have days when I’m very depressed. Again, like the anti-overload patch, this would seem like a better alternative to my current daily antidepressant.
- A patchwork weighted blanket: Lisa said patches can be any sort, so patchwork quilts are included. I’ve always wanted a weighted blanket, but never took the effort to find myself one.
- An executive functioning patch: something like an anti-procrastination patch, but it’ll also break down difficult tasks into smaller, easy-to-follow steps.
Note that every autistic person is different. This is why I referred to “this autistic person” in my post title rather than “every autistic person”. If you’ve met one autistic person, you’ve met one autistic person, after all. If you’d like to contribute what patches you could use in life, write a list of ten and hop over to Lisa’s blog to submit it.