This week has been rather eventful and yet, nothing really did happen. A lot of changes are on the horizon for me, yet nothing has really changed yet.
First, I found out a few weeks ago that next week, my primary day activities staff will be leaving the day center. It is great for her, as she’ll embark on a new and challenging path in her career. For me though, it’s quite hard. Some of my other staff and family have been askign whether I mind at all, since I’ve been struggling at day activities and she was the one who filed the incident report that led to my day activities hours being cut. Yes, I do mind, since despite this, I like this staff a lot.
Then on Thursday, I found out that my CPN is leaving too. It’s also to embark on a new and challenging path in her career, but it’s sad nonetheless. My CPN and I have had quite a few misunderstandings over the ten months so far that we’ve worked together. However, I’ve noticed that I did make progress. It seems odd, since both my husband and my psychiatrist have been commenting on how I didn’t get far on the DBT course yet and it’s apparently my CPN’s fautl. Apparently, she should be limiting my bringing up only indirectly related topics.
I know the nurse practitioner who will be replacing her already from my intake interview last year. It is a slight disadvantage that he’s male, but other than that, I think I could get along with him just fine. However, it’s still a bit stressful that so many people are leaving at the same time. After all, my nurse will also be taken off my case. We’re not yet 100% sure who will be replacing her.
On Friday, I had a meeting with my psychiatrist. We discussed my progress on the DBT course, my medication and I mentioned I’ve been rather depressed lately. I did say it’s been going on for half a year already, so if I can hold it together for that long, it must not be that bad. She ignored this comment and proposed to increase the dose of my citalopram from 20 to 30mg. It’s a bit scary, since I’ve been on 20mg ever since 2010 with no med review whatsoever and I didn’t even know why I’d been prescribed it. IN this sense, I like it that my psychiatrist did ask to see me in a month’s time for an evaluation. I really do hope the med increase will help with mood improvement.