Welcome to my belated letter P post in the #AtoZChallenge of random reflections. I was rather uninspired yesterday. I also wanted to spend my time upping my activity as tracked by my Fitbit, so that hopefully I’d reach my 10K steps a day – which I almost did. Today too, I wasn’t feeling very inspired. I didn’t know any words with the letter P to write on. Yes, “Preemie”, but I’ve shared my birth story a dozen times already. Or “Psych”, but I didn’t know what to write about then. My husband came up with two this evening that are rather fitting: “Perseverance” and “procrastination”.
I am both quite perseverant and a terrible procrastinator. How can this be? I guess because, though I tend to take frequent breaks in my activities, I almost always manage to carry on after all. This blog post is living proof of that.
Then again, this combination of perseverance and procrastination can also backfire, as I tend to have rather rigid rules about when I can and can’t keep up with some work. For example, if I haven’t posted on a blog for an entire month, I say I have to give up on the blog. This has gotten me to abandon and restart my Dutch blog at least half a dozen times within the past four years. Thankfully, I still manage to keep up with this English blog.
Like I said in my letter N post, I like my perseverance when I’m passionate about something. This perseverance however can backfire too, as I get too obsessed and then am left with lots of stuff and lots of money gone for my special interest when I lose interest again. For example, I probably spent 500 to 1000 euros (closer to 1000 probably) on cardmaking supplies in the year that I was obsessing over cardmaking in 2012. I want to think I didn’t spend as much on soaping supplies in 2016 and I want to think I’ll still pick up that craft. I’m so glad blogging, at least in my style, isn’t as expensive.
As I look back over my post though, I realize maybe here I described the exact opposite of perseverance and procrastination. After all, I jump head first into an interest without procrastination, but once I lose the interest, I don’t really persevere. Sometimes I do, but, except with blogging, I sooner or later always give up.