Category Archives: Happiness

Rays of Sunlight – June 2018

Wow, we’re almost halfway through the year! Time definitely does fly. I have a handful of new post ideas in my head, but today, it’s far too hot for a complicated post. Instead, I’m going to share my positives, or rays of sunlight, for the month of June.

1. Summer. The weather is still beautiful. I heard on the radio that we broke a record for heat the second quarter of 2018. My husband also said that the weather institute predicts a very wet summer. I’m hoping not, since for everything other than complicated blog post writing, this weather is great (although my husband thinks otherwise).

2. Going for walks. According to my Fitbit activity tracker, I reached the recommendded step goal of 10,000 daily several times this month. Of course, that isn’t nearly good enough, as it’s a recommended daily goal, but I’m still enjoying competing with myself.

3. Going to a spa with my sister. Back in February or March, my sister said she’d like to take me to some kind of spa someday in June when her husband would be on a business trip. This day came round June 18. We went to a spa called Sanadome in Nijmegen, which has a lot of scentsy baths, bubble baths and warm swimming pools. I loved it. My sister paid, as this was an early birthday gift for me. Afterwards, we went out for dinner at my favorite restaurant, which I discovered when I was hospitalized in Nijmegen back in 2008. Unfortunately, they no longer had my favorite, turkey, on the menu.

4. My birthday. Yay, I turned 32 on Wednesday! I’m still often pretty excited about my birthday and becoming a year older, even though with each year I come closer to old age. As I had already seen my sister when we went to the spa, she didn’t visit on my birthday. My parents did though. We went for a long walk (one of the days I reached 10,000 steps). After that, we had dinner at a Mexican restaurant in Doetinchem, a city about twenty minutes from my home.

5. BBQ’ing with my in-laws. I don’t know whether it was for my birthday (just let me think it was) or some other reason, but my mother-in-law invited us over yesterday. The previous day I’d been stuffed after the Mexican dinner, but I still enjoyed the food yesterday. Don’t ask me about my weight.

6. Kindle. Yes, I have to mention it again. In early May, I bought my first book on Kindle, which I’m slowly moving through. This month though, I rediscovered foster care and inspirational memoirs. I decided to buy one and flew through it. I’ll likely post a review in a few days.

7. Visiting potential new day activities. I will likely write a separate post on this, but let me say that I might finally have found a place that’s suitable. We’re moving slowly and I won’t make any final decisions until we’ve spoken with the Center for Consultation and Expertise consultant. That meeting has been set for July 31.

8. Depression finally lifting. I’m still not feeling overly happy, but at least I can say I’m no longer depressed. I am so glad my increased antidepressant dose hasn’t caused any side effects either.

I hope you’ve had a great June too.

A Cornish Mum

Rays of Sunlight – April 2018

It’s been months since I last posted a list of things I’ve liked and loved, otherwise known as my Rays of Sunlight post. In fact, it’s been over a year, although I did post some positive posts more recently.

April 2018 was really a mixed bag. I’ve been struggling a lot, but there were also lots of positives. Today, I’m sharing these positives.

1. The beautiful weather. Today is a cloudy day, but last week, I was actually able to wear a skirt for the first time this year. It was over 25 degrees Celsius and sunny. I loved it!

2. My mood improving. I mentioned this in my gratitude post as part of the #AtoZChallenge already. Now that I’ve been on the increased dose of my antidepressant for over three weeks, I think I can sincerely say it’s helping some. I am not over the moon happy, but then again I didn’t believe I’d be. Instead, I feel calmer and a little more able to handle stressors such as my husband being home late from work. It’s still hard, but I’m less likely to engage in self-destructive behaviors. Yesterday, for example, hubby wasn’t home till 8:30PM and I felt quite stressed. However, instead of doing something self-destructive, I called the on-call nurse at the mental hospital.

3. Cuddling with my stuffed animals. I have five stuffed animals in our bed. Until recently, I didn’t know how to arrange them cofortably and still have space for myself and my husband to sleep. Now I seem to have figured it out. I love to cuddle with my stuffies just before going to sleep.

4. Nice wax melt scents. I rediscovered my wax melts on Wednesday. I don’t know which I have in my warmer right now, as I opened it when my husband was at work so couldn’t ask him to read the packaging. I love the scent though.

5. Beautiful music. Thanks to My Inner MishMash, I rediscovered Cara Dillon. She is an Irish singer and I just love her music. It’s so relaxing.

6. Kindle. On Saturday, I had a meltdown because Adobe Digial Editions, which I use for reading eBooks from Kobo, was once again crashing on an eBook I had just bought. I tried out Kindle with some free eBooks then. Amazon only accepts credit cards as payment, which I don’t have, but my husband has said I can use his if I can make Kindle work. With my version of JAWS, my main screen reader software, it isn’t working that well, but with NVDA, a free screen reader, it is. Kindle also works on the iPhone. I am loving the free children’s stories I downloaded. I may write a full review soon.

A Cornish Mum

Rays of Sunlight – March 2017

The past few weeks have been rather rough. My depression and anxiety symptoms have been rather bad. Though it’s mostly related to my psychiatric re-assessment and the plan to move out of the institution by May 1, these are not situations I can change. I also find it particularly hard to change my thoughts about them. All I can do is try to focus on the little things I do enjoy. Yesterday, I discovered the Liked and Loved linky. It is a beautiful way for people to share what they’ve liked and loved in the past month. Most people post about products. I will mention some of these too, but will also share the experiences that I’ve liked and loved. I therefore title this post “Rays of sunlight”.

I Love Myself Box

I Love Myself Box

First, a product – or several. In early February, I ordered a box called the I Love Myself box at a little Dutch skincare store. It isn’t a monthly subscription box, but the surprise effect is similar. When you order it, you get a questionnaire that allows the store owner to get an idea of what products might suit you. You then get a personalized surprise box of skin care, makeup, bath and related products. My box is lovely, though I haven’t yet tried out every product. I got a lip gloss with a lovely scent, a box of tiny wax melts (oh, how I love those!), some facial care products, a hand cream and a bath bomb. I will need to bathe soon, as we don’t have a tub at home.

Pizza

My husband has been calling Saturdays “Pizzaturdays” and getting me pizza almost every week. In addition, a few weeks ago the staff at my unit got takeout pizza for those who wanted it and could afford it. There’s this pizza restaurant in the next town that I used to order a very spicey salami pizza from. The more I ate it, the more I disliked it and I couldn’t figure out why, since I thought I loved all ingredients. As it turned out though, there was anchovy on the pizza, which made it very salty. This time when the staff ordered from that restaurant, I decided to go for a regular salami pizza.

Soap Making

For the first time in a few months, I made a melt and pour soap again a few weeks ago. I based it on this recipe, though I used regular white soap base rather than honey soap base and I skipped the bee pollen. I do have honey soap base too, but the staff member I made it for wanted me to use a white soap base and I couldn’t find my goat’s milk soap base. I also mixed in some gold-colored mica, which gave the soap a creamy color. I do know hwo to make real gold-colored surfaces, but the staff didn’t want me to do this. I loved the process, though the soap didn’t turn out as great as I’d hoped. That’s why I don’t have a picture.

Learning to Use an iPhone

I finally had my first trial lesson with an iPhone three weeks ago. Blind people often need to have special instruction in using a smartphone, especially if like me they have no previous experience with it. The iPhone is more accessible than are Android phones, which is why I’m learning to use that. I managed the tapping and swiping movements surprisingly well. I will take one more trial lesson before I buy myself an iPhone and will start formal training.

An Evening at My In-Laws

Yesterday, I was home for a day. It went okay, but not great. Because my husband wasn’t sure he’d be home in time for dinner, he asked his mother if I could eat there. My mother-in-law picked me up at around 5PM and we drank some coffee and then had dinner. It was nice. My in-laws have four horses. After dinner, my mother-in-law asked me whether I wanted to pet one of the horses. She led me to a horse named Bink, who loves to be petted on the neck. I have some experience doing day activities with horses, but those were tiny ponies and this is a large horse. I was excited and a little scared at once.

Sunny Weather

The last two weeks have been great weather-wise. I have been doing lots of walking and sitting outside. Haven’t yet been in our garden at home, because yesterday I was afraid our cat would get outside and manage to get onto some roof. My husband and I did take a little tandem bike ride last week, which was fun.

What have you been enjoying lately?

A Cornish Mum

Happy List – May 30 to June 5, 2016

I’ve been feeling extremely unmotivated to blog lately. It’s not that I don’t want to, or that there aren’t enough prompts or other ideas to get me started. I just can’t get my fingers moving and actually type that post. I don’t know whether it’s for that reason or in spite of it, but I’ve wanted to restart my Dutch website, blog or both. Of course, I’m uninpsired on that side of the language fence too. Just to get myself back into the swing of things, I’ll just write a list of things I’m happy about this week.



  • I’ve been doing okay in the exercise department. The physical therapist came to my unit on Monday to do exercise with me and I worked out some with the resistance band. On Tuesday, I went to the institution gym and did well there. I’ve also been lifting weights and working out more with the resistance band in my room. Yesterday, I went on the elliptical at home.

  • On a somewhat related note, the physical therapist measured the strength in my hands, believing my left hand would be weaker. Turned out they’re both equally strong (or weak). I didn’t ask whether my strength is much worse than normal people’s. It probably is, but for now, let’s forget that and focus on the fact that my left hand isn’t weaker than the right one.


  • On Wednesday, two student nurses from the locked ward went to the market and there was still room in their car. Since one guy ended up not wanting to go and another woman had just lost her privileges, I was the only one going. We bought fruit for my unit and the locked unit and I got some fish.

  • On Friday, my husband and I went out to buy fries and snacks. Yesterday, my husband made us tortillas. Both times, the food was great.

  • Yesterday, my husband and I went clothes shopping for me. We didn’t find what we’d hoped for, but we did find some great dresses.

  • The weather is good. We were supposed t get thunderstorms all week, but in the institution town we only got one on Tuesday. My husband did get worse thuderstorms. Over the week-end, however, we had beautiful weather at home.

  • Our cat Barry celebrated his third birthday today. My in-laws came and brought an apple pie. Barry himself got some of his favorite food.


What are you happy about this week?

Ten Reasons I Love Spring

Spring is the second best season after summer if you ask me. Summer is better among other reasons because it’s my birthday season. Today, however, I’ll be sharing the reasons why I love spring.

1. The weather. When I was on the locked unit in the city hospital, my unit was close to a park. The beginning of spring was marked by the weather being dry and warm enough that I could lie on the grass in the park. This happened in the middle of March the year I was on that unit. My ideal weather however is dry, sunny with some clouds and a daytime temperature of above 20°C. We don’t usually reach that temperature until the middle of April.

2. Being able to wear skirts and short sleeves. I used to have rules about what weather dictated which clothees, because otherwise I’d be walking in a T-shirt when it’s freezing and wear a hoodie and jacket when it’s 30°C. I have a hard time telling when it’s too hot or too cold, after all. I still use my rules at times, although I forget to check the weather forecast a lot. When it’s above 20°C, I can usually wear skirts and short-sleeved shirts. My pants are all black or denim, but my skirts are in brighter colors. I love wearing them and love wearing my sandals too.

3. Being able to sit in the garden. This is the first spring that my husband and I have a garden. Although I don’t like sun-bathing or otherwise doing nothing while in the garden, I love to spend time in the garden when I have something to do. We don’t have a flowery garden and the fruits and berries won’t be there till summer. Next year summer that is, because my husband says he’ll have to remove half the berries and fruits from the trees once they first appear to prevent the trees from falling over.

4. Daylight. I don’t like the sun shining right through the window of my study at home, but otherwise I love the fact that it’s light outside longer.

5. Going for walks. This is not a specific spring activity, but it’s a lot more fun in the spring. The weather is usually ideal and the air is fresh. I love, love, love going for walks and it’s harder to motivate people to take me on walks during other seasons – or to be motivated myself.

6. Birds. These days, I usually wake up at 6AM. I don’t usually wake up because of the chirping of birds – another patient’s alarm clock wakes me. Still, I do often hear the chirping of birds through my window. I also often still hear them when I go to bed at just before 10PM.

7. Holidays. We’ve got Easter, King’s Day on April 27, the feast of the ascension and liberation day, which of course aren’t always on the same day like this year. After all, liberation day is always on May 5, but the date of the ascension depends on when Easter is that year. Lastly, there’s of course Pentecost, which is coming up this week-end. I am not big on Christian holidays, but I love the extra days off and I do like the good vibes shining off my Bible reading around those days.

8. Birthdays. Not my own like I said, but my mother and sister have their birthdays in the spring. I love visiting my parents usually between my mother’s and sister’s birthday to celebrate both.

9. Seasonal foods. I am not a big fan of typical winter foods like kale with smoked sausage or suerkraut. The beginning of spring means a new menu with more seasonal foods in the institution. Also, of course, at the end of spring there’s a huge variety of seasonal produce at the stores.

10. Renewed energy. I am usually more energized physically during the spring and summer than during the fall and winter. Also, the spring often brings renewed mental energy and motivation. Lastly, I’m often n a better mood during springtime.

What is your favorite season? And what do you love most about spring?

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