Last year, my word for the year was “nurture”. Because it means so many things, I can say that I more or less followed this theme. For example, I bought some new beauty products that I’ve been eagerly using. I also started up yoga, although I haven’t been practising much lately.
In other ways, however, I didn’t really nurture myself. I kept on overeating, maybe even worse than in 2014. The beginning of 2016 isn’t good in this department either.
When it comes to my word for this year, unlike last year, one hasn’t been on my mind for a long time. In fact, I am still not sure that this word is the one I should choose. It sounds a bit vague. The word is “progress”. Related words, like “move” and “forward”, have been going through my mind too, but “progress” seems better.
In some ways, we always make progress. We progress through life, whether we move forward or not. We get older, after all. Progress doesn’t necessarily mean positive change. A progressive disease gets worse, after all.
So am I setting myself up for failure, or for guaranteed success, by being as vague as I am with this choice of words? Possibly. ONly time will tell.
I will, however, share what I think progress means when applied to what’s going to happen in 2016. Firstly, it means moving forward on the road I’ve embarked on. In some respects, I should not wish to do this. LIke, I gained weight in 2015 and should definitely not follow along on this route.
I mostly mean progress in terms of my move out of the psychiatric institution. I need to keep progressing on this route towards independence. Way too often, I'm tempted to just give up and go back into my comfort zone. I need to remind myself that this is the year to take leaps forward, to grow, to progress. They don't need to be huge leaps. Sometimes, they can be tiny steps. But the road has been paved and I'll follow it.
I just realized too that “progress” can mean continuing to follow the path I’ve embarked on in 2015. Like I said, I didn’t nurture myself in every respect, but I did in some. For 2016, I need to continue pursuing self-care, which was my word for 2014. I need to continue nurturing myself, which was my word for 2015. I ned to progress along the road I’ve paved for myself.