Pros and Cons of My Eating Disorder

I have truly been relapsing in the eating disorder department lately. I don’t really know why, other than the fact that I’m quite irritable lately. This, though, seems to be a vicious cycle: I go from irritability to thinking about bingeing or purging to actually bingeing or purging and back to irritability.

In order to help myslef think clearer about my disordered eating habits, I bought the eBook Journaling in Eating Disorder Recovery by Laurie Glass. The book contains a multitude of suggestions for journaling yourself into recovery. One of the suggestions is to make lists, for example of feelings or thoughts. I really love list-making.

The book also contains journaling questions. I don’t know whether a pro/con list for your eating disorder is in them, but I made one recently. I made it for a pro-eating disorder site that I used to go to, but I left it. I might still be a member but don’t want to trigger myself by checking the list there. Let me make a new one.

Pros of my eating disorder:


  • Relieving stress.

  • Feeling something in my body rather than in my mind.

  • Being able to eat as much as I want of the foods I love. This one isn’t really true, as I’m not sure I want to eat till I’m nauseated. I however have the thought that if I recover, I need to adhere to a strict diet and can never have candy or pizza again.

  • Avoiding the physical and mental sensations of hunger.

  • Expressing that I’m not feeling well. This may be in the sense that eating disorder behaviors are a cry for attention, but also that they impress the reality of my struggles upon myself.

  • Avoiding pressures such as college or work or independent living.

Cons of my eating disorder:


  • Weight gain and the resulting obesity.

  • Acid reflux from purging. Possible esophagus damage as a result.

  • Not being able to engage in healthy social interactions because of having food on my mind all the time.

As you can see, I find I can think of far more pros for my eating disorder than cons. However, ultimately, these pros are based on the idea that I do not cycle from irritability to thoughts about disordered eating habits to eating disorder behaviors and back to irritability. In reality, the stress relief, for example, is very short-lived. For instance, I just binged terribly about an hour ago and have been feeling guilty and angry for the past thirty minutes at least.

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8 thoughts on “Pros and Cons of My Eating Disorder

  1. Sometimes, what people do is diet for six days out of the week and then have a “cheat day”, where they eat whatever they want.

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  2. It’s such a vicious cycle that’s so very hard to break free of.. I’m not personally familiar but I’ve read a lot of books on eating disorders in my time just out of interest.

    Hang on and hang in there hun… xo

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  3. hope the book helps -I don’t know what to say – since I really don’t know anything about this subject. maybe there are some more help aids in the book ? šŸ™‚

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  4. Relapse and inconsistency is a normal part of human existence. The important thing to remember when it happens is to have self empathy and self compassion because how we treat ourselves on the outside usually reflects how we feel on the inside. I am glad journaling has been therapeutic because it is important to have release so that one doesn’t resort to the same negative cycle! Sending warm smiles your way! šŸ™‚

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