Dear evaluating psychologist,
You don’t know me yet. Soon, you’ll know me as the blind, autistic person who was born prematurely. Then, you’ll hopefully get to now me as Astrid. I was referred to you by the autism center’s consultation team for neuropsychological and intelligence testing.
You need to know that I am a survivor of psychological trauma. I won’t disclose any details, but it’s important that you know that psychological evaluations are a big trigger for me. They are very intimidating. As a result, I might dissociate and put on a mask, which might influence my performance.
I ddon’t know how exactly to prevent myself from dissociating or putting on a mask. I also don’t know for sure what you can do to help me. However, I would suggest you refrain from making assumptions about my performance prior to or during testing. I will try to remember that I’m still me with my abilities and difficulties, regardless of the outcome of testing. However, this is hard to remember.
I hope that the testing experience will be as stress-free as possibe. Thank you for any help you may be able to provide.
I went to the country’s top notch autism center, which happens to be in my town, yesterday. They thankfully believe I’m on the spectrum and don’t see a need to re-evaluate me. They however recommended intelligence and neuropsychologcal testing to find out why I function at a much lower level than my verbal ability would suggest.
They also recommended a sensory processing evaluation. I have suspected I have sensory processing issues for a long while, but now that I think on it, I may ask specifically about auditory processing. I used to be seen as an auditory learner (probably because my tactile skills were worse), but I still have a lot of difficulty understanding speech when there’s background noise. I also tend to process speech with some delay it seems. For example, I’ll say “What?” and then realize I did hear what was being said. Some people in the sensory processing disorder community said that auditory procesisng is different from sensory integration, so I’ll have to ask specifically about this.
Lastly, they recommended a support worker come to visit me at home and in the institution to establish my independence and support needs. Then, they could help me develop greater independence skills.